happy new years!

happy early new years everyone! this year was a breeze. i've had my ups and downs but it was pretty much a good year. i don't ask for anything else but perhaps...motivation.

i really suck at keeping my new years resolutions because as time progessed - my mind changes. i've always wanted to lose weight. i mean i know it may not sound logical, health wise, but i want to weigh at least 110 lbs. that has always been one of my top new years resolutions.

i'm pretty much a yo-yo when it comes to my weight. i gain some and i lose some. i think my heaviest was around 200 lbs. no one believes me but my scale does. i guess to others it didn't look like i was 200 lbs because i'm pretty average in height (5'5)

i mean if i was short - the world would've noticed!

anyways... i don't know about you guys... but i am sometimes insecure when standing next to my boyfriend. i mean he's around my height but freaking all muscles and bones. :(

he and i are on a mission to lose and to gain weight. lol - he wants to get bigger because basketball season for him is around the corner - and i, well i just want to look smoking hot. hahahahaha. (conceited much?) j/k.

well i didn't really start losing weight until about 4 months ago? i started at 185 and now am down to 125. so i only have a few pounds to shed to get to my ultimate goal weight.


how i did what i do? i basically cut out eating at fast foods, i have a love hate relationship with my soda intake, & i don't eat much junk food. i went back to eating what i used to eat which consist of: rice, water, veggies & i don't eat salt with a lot of food esp. my eggs.

most importantly exercise! don't go on those fad diets because you will be back to your original weight in no time!


all in all, my new years resolution is to be more healthier in my decisions whether it be because of my diet or just life itself. makes sense? lol j/k.

hope you all have a good new years and be safe whereever it is you will be!


love always

which one would you buy?

since i've already bought my boyfriend his ' i want this for xmas ' present and it's already in use - i wanted to give him something to unwrap come christmas. i don't know which one to get since i like them both so i need your help.

which one of these two would you get? my boyfriend is small but very muscular, not short but not tall either. :)

thank you much!

my 21st -

my birthday is coming up in less than 2 months. i'm turning the big 2 -1 .

what better way than to celebrate it in vegas! i'm not a big fan of gambling but it's something

spontaneous and a new place for me to venture in.

anyone know any good place to go, hotels to stay in, somewhere to shop?

anyone that knows vegas, please share with moi!

thank you loves!

thankful for -

everything.

it may be vague and discreet but on the up and up of what really is.

thanksgiving has been an ice breaker - slowly i am mending the broken strings that i've foolishly destroyed.

although there is melancholy in my heart i am buoyant for what will be.

this is my fitting of all times it is to be just thankful.

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on another note: new moon was sooooo boring. i fell asleep not once but three times trying to give this movie a shot to excite me. i can't believe the amazing rave this movie got. it was too freaking long! 'edward' did not look good at all. haha nor did the guys who played werewolf (ex. jacob). and the ending was horrible! i say horrible! man i could've been watching ninja assasin!

so i have realized -

that come winter i begin to experience nasty ass acne on my back! what the shit is this!

i've tried many, plenty, a little bit of everything - and nothing seems to work!

odd thing is, it disappears when it wants too and comes at the most inconvient times!

i hate having to dress up and know that i've got some nasty little critters crawling and exploding behind my back!

sorry for the 101 on my life with acne! lol.

anyone know a good remedy as to how to get rid of my body acne?!

for the most part - i think it's just my body recovering from my late illness! haha - could be. i hope so!

already judge -

crazy how one thing can change a person's whole perspective of you.

i was helping a lady at work today - she was pretty nice [at first] .

i guess she was glancing at me and noticed that i had a tattoo. right then and there she just looked at me dumbfounded and in disgust.

funny ain't it?

my tattoo isn't something that can be labeled as offensive because it means nothing to strangers.

the good thing out of it all - it made me appreciate people. what i mean is - just because someone is different ( tattoos, piercings, etc.) doesn't mean they are all evil. like that saying goes, ' it takes one to know one.'

my tattoo is just of a cross, heart, and what my dad said right before he passed away. tell me that isn't bad? lol.

another example - my boyfriend (he's not hmong, he is vietnamese).

i remember taking my boyfriend to a hmong festivity - when an [ex] aunt of mines came up to me and asked who my friend is. she thought he was hmong so she was speaking to him in hmong. of course my bf looked like a deer staring into a headlight - that she then realize he was not hmong. asked what he was then said to me,

' why you date vietnamese, they bad people - shoot kill us all - they do not love you as much as someone who is hmong will'

oh man - tell me what has this world come too? people take things too literally nowadays.

already judge.

new at this

lol, figured i would since i'm always trying to comment someone's blog and end up not being able to because i am not a member.